Whats coming up. starting physics at the best (for my plans) uni in germany. turns out there is no admission restriction for physics in germany (except 50% dropout after 1st term) - passing up on school was correct (lots of interesting conversations with staff, had 20-30% miss rate and strong yet different oppinion on things, hehe). Also Im going to do exactly what I want and like with my life. the path I had lined originally lined out, EE + corporate emplebment, would not have worked. I know some of my peers (went to technical HS, its like HS with engineering APs, most became engineers) arent so happy. theyre more like 'its not what I wana do, but its decent and safe'
bottom line. I have liked to have a bachelor by now. Im uneasy about the fact that I have traded 3 years of my 20s-early-30s (=prime years of drive and production, breakthrough years) for things others have for free (money, psychological stability, understanding of life).
For me, with all the things I got, considering my situation, the relative value gain was totally worth it and the best path I could have taken. Zero regrets.
p.s. online poker is illegal in the US, unplayable in france, italy, spain, portugal. the market is trending down strongly and it is super hard to make real money.
it is absolutly not worth it to become a fulltime pro at this point. if you can make the money, you totally have better options elsewhere (in entrpeneurism / general work) .
it can be nice as uni time sidejob.
also disclaimer: I lost my first 2k$ and almost went full out broke, including irl, safe for 100$ in poker cashback bonus)